Saturday, February 25, 2006
The whole mid-night , i was troubled and depressed... i sat infront of my computer wondering what really happened to me... i think through for hours.. i dunno what to do... i just know that i need some support from ppl after some sort of failure.. hiaz.. I told myself to be strong... in chinese , we say ' failure is the mother of success ' ... well , I do believe .. that is why i not going to give up.. i will keep on trying till my last breath.. sorry about yesterday night , i sound really down .. and depressed.. i don't mean to spoil your mood.. sorry.. i just need someone to console when i am down.. but i will be ok afterwards.. don't worry.. i know you are angry and you sound frustrated... but what i have to say is SORRY..
BAck to the topic , it is only when 4am when i fell asleep, yawn.. but my mind can't rest peacefully.. I was worried about my job and you.. Did u know that ? I wish i could be by your side and protect you..
I woke up at about 12pm.. and i started calling the part time job .. haiz.. but its fails again.. haiz.. sms to two company then never got any reply.. call two company , one is they only want female tutors.. omg, then what are we guys going to do.. haiz.. another company is much better but the place is a bit too far , it is at woodlands... and so i rejected it... haiz.. although , it is quite sad lor but nvm , i am not going to give up..
The rest of the day , I called my friends out to find job and play soccer.. but neither of them can make it .. haiz.. they are not working also.. but i don't understand why they are not feeling bored .. some told me " play games at home lor". Aiyo , play games , omg , i think there is better things to do other than playing games. won't they get bored playing the same games again and agian.. haiz.. anyway , that's not my problem..
So the whole afternoon was bored for me lor,,, haiz,,, suddenly i think of MJC , haiz,, did i make the right choice to withdraw ??? if i didn't withdraw , i might not end up so sian right , but if i don't withdraw , i will be stressed up.. haiz.. it seems like both ways are not a good choice.. of course i miss my MJ friends ... haha,,, think of them, i really miss the fun we have in MJ... rememeber the wet wet wild we play and those games in sentonsa , wow,,, it is indeed a wonderful memory.. yar.. i love my CG ... 06S209 .. u r the best... we have fun during lessons and outings too...i will never forget my last day day in MJC as a student , it was the day O level result was released.. when school dismiss , 06S209 went to whitesand MAc , and we have a good chat with one another.. we also took some photos,,, haha... is fun lor... we were talking about what JC to go after getting the O level result.. haha we have fun... real fun ... the picture on top is one of the picture we took at Mac..
After that i went to CP to get some books.. to my surprise i saw bee , hui min and jia fa... haha
bee was working ... haha.. we chat for a while... i was shocked that bee told me that 14 ppl from 4 Hum are going to TP... haha it seems like lesser and lesser ppl going JC le... haha i went home after that to catch a tv show.. yup.. so tired ... yawn.. gotta sleep early tonight ... nv sleep well the previous day...
i love you ;
10:31 PM
